"Those who are dead are not dead,
They're just living in my head.
And since I fell for that spell,
I am living there as well.
Time is so short and I'm sure
There must be something more.
You thought you might be a ghost
You didn't get to Heaven but you made it close..."
42, Viva la Vida, Coldplay

Astonishing, isn't it? This song is quite comparable to my current circumstances with the others. They claim to have past lives on Earth but here they are with me in my psychological mentality. I think this is symbolic that I am not the only individual with spiritual connections . i truly believe that with my limited telepathy with these spirits I can succeed in life-- All of them, are such an important part of me. Their words and thoughts have greatly improved my way of thinking. My only wish that they were physically here so I could see their eyes and feel their touch... Maybe in the future I will encounter them, or I have hopes for at least one. Him.

Physicality. I despise that word. Well, not so much the word itself but my desire for it. Webster's definition: "physical" relating to the body rather than the mind

That definition seems to put it altogether. Quite disturbing. There's an interesting word that I want to share, "transcendentalism" also meaning to keep your mind beyond the physical world and be free.

I want to study more upon this subject and maybe if I comprehend it more, I'll be able to fully achieve my goals. Oddly enough, before I ever even wanted to expand my psych-ment, I've been introduced to this matter.

Back to the word physical. My desire for interaction has been getting stronger lately and even though I try to cancel out those thoughts, they appear in my dreams. I feel guilty for having these dreams and then having to share them with the one I love. He understands but I cannot be that close. I wish I could survive on emotional sense alone.... But it is rather difficult. I wish I could change my behavior. I'm so human. I admit , humanity isn't all that dreadful. Excluding hormones and the million imperfections we have. I was told that I'm very admirable from a more 'artificial' perspective. Simply because perfection is too symmetrical and plain. Humans' mistakes and problems, even faults, are quite beautiful. One may look at a rose and call it beautiful and sweet scented... But another being who has never seen a rose might call it ugly. Beauty is defined on how you see contrast in life. The Earth is full of contrast. Too much of anything is bad.

Enough of these deep measure. I am only one individual. Conscious or not. Yet I've come into the realization of how powerful I truly am.

--Michangelina

Only in my dreams can I have no limitations.