Define: Michangelina

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I am both logical and imaginative. I have an apprehensive psychological mentality (aka "mind") or I'm possibly suffering with a psychological disorder that I am unaware of. My ego is nerdy/random; I often have deep inquisitions about the Universe. My Universe is quite abstruse but mostly harmless. If you pursue my friendship, give me chocolate. Statistically, I'm normal, but by my twisted logic, I have an incentive that cries: survival of the uniquest!

Untitled Masterpiece

For anyone who has some free time, I wrote a short story and titled it "Untitled Masterpiece". This work is a personal narrative based off a dark experience in my lifetime when I had an epiphany. My writing is not much different than my poetry. Open to constructive criticism.
Untitled Masterpiece (Google Document)

Chocolate

Dear Respected Stalkers of Michangelina's Unverse,

The purpose of this post is to inform my audience that I am accepting questions via email, instant messaging, blog comments, or vis a vis. I will answer as many questions as possible on a regular basis from now on. The goal is to keep my blog alive instead of the ghost town it is.

My first question was unfortunately not a philosophical one. However, it was amusing:

MIND BOGGLING QUESTION:
"You have to choose between coffee, chocolate, and cheesecake. Which do you choose and why? The why needs to explain why the other stuff wasn't good enough, etc."

MIND BOGGLING ANSWER:
My friends know that I have five C's of happiness: caffeine/coffee, chocolate, cheesecake, Coldplay, and cats. These things make me happy and without them I wouldn't be on this planet. My friend made me decide between three of these items, all of which are food, and pick only one. This is a difficult decision but I have an answer.
First, let's discuss cheesecake. As delectable and rich of a pastry it is, it is rare and only for special occasions. I already acknowledge the fact that I am capable of surviving without cheesecake.
Secondly, coffee, as much as I respect its high content of caffeine there are other sources of caffeine: tea, energy drinks, juice, etc. I love green tea and drink it on a weekly basis. It is a healthier source than coffee and contains nearly the same amount of caffeine. So, I can eliminate coffee.
Thirdly, chocolate is my final answer because chocolate is unlike anything else in this world. Vanilla? How can vanilla compare? It can't. Hazelnut? No, it's not as bittersweet as the harvested cocoa beans. Chocolate has caffeine and is in many foods. Without chocolate in my life, I could not survive. Another confession of a chocoholic.

That is my answer for today. Please feel free to comment on my answer and/or ask a new question. Thank you.

Radioactive Heart

My poetry block disintegrated in my cerebrospinal fluid. Please excuse my scientific terminology. I often radicalize concepts to their simplest of means: principles of science. This poem is written with seventeen syllable lines with internal rhyming. (Same as the song, "Unintended" by Muse.) Also influenced by Kraftwerk's song, "Radioactivity". The format was a challenge to work through but I defeated it.

[Radioactive Heart]
Darkness obscured your danger sign, imperceptible but not benign.
My dreams flowed into a high electric field, our minds taped and concealed--
Your heart was radioactive; all my emotions were refractive.
I sacrificed full support before the strings were cut short.
The promising harmony in our memorized words matched us backwards.
"There is always a possibility" . . . caused susceptibility . . .
Bitten by beating betrayal was a poor, pitiful portrayal.
Heart radioactive, skin magnetic, and eyes apologetic--
I emitted isotopic tears as I enveloped my vile fears,
A sharp gamma knife damaging our decayed friendship by a half-life.
Heart radioactive, skin magnetic, and eyes apologetic--
The nuclear attraction in the atmosphere of chain reaction.
Exponentially drifting apart in your radioactive heart.










Fifty Five

This is a beautiful poem written by a beautiful friend of mine.

Fifty-five

By Monique Pressley

One for my mom, two for my dad

Three for the family that I never had

Four for the friends I know that I’ll miss

Hey, can you tell me, what is this “bliss”?

Five for the person I wanted to be

Hey can you still recognize me?

Six for my love who went away

Please just tell me that you’ll stay

Seven for the sake of luck

And all my feelings that have

Run amuck.

Eight for the wish of eternal sleep.

I sure do hope that no one weeps.

Nine for this name of mine.

I hope that it won’t change with time.

Ten more pills in this bottle of sin.

I’ll empty it now and begin again.

Time Lords

So there's a rumor that Doctor Who's real name is: Chrístõdavõreendiamondhærtmallõupdracœfiredelúnmiancuimhne de Lœngbærrow... Chrístõ to his close friends. I watched "The Library" episode today and found it puzzling. By far, my favorite
episode. The Doctor also goes by Theta Sigma "ΘΣ"... That's an interesting nickname. I'm going to write it on my AP Statistics notebook. It'll blend right in.

...I thought I had a long name... Goodness.

Cracked Film

This morning I wrote this poem. It's not perfect iambic pentameter... However, it is written in pentameter... I didn't truncate the poem either but I like it because it's simple.

Cracked Film
If I cannot dream in any other hue,
Then stretched upon my eyes sticks a blue film,
Therefore my cornea cracks and shatters
Because irises trick both the fake and true.

Proof of Time's Arrow

This has been waiting to be published forever now. So I finally did. Mostly written in free style, with the exception of rhyming couplets.

Proof of Time's Arrow

How do we distinguish between fact and fiction?

I want the truth without the friction--

No such thing as absolute truth,

No presence of evidence or proof,

No memory of facts and data,

Philosophy’s delusion is tearing me apart--

Forgetting Descartes . . .

I want,

I need,

I sense,

My hierarchy of needs is reversed;

All incentive is dispersed.

To love illogically,

To enforce and regulate,

To believe what you are told,

Where does it all become narrow?

Traveling through time’s arrow--

The Resistance

THE RESISTANCE by MUSE

Is your secret safe tonight?
And are we out of sight?
Or will our world come tumblin' down?
Will they find our hiding place?
Is this our last embrace?
Or will the walls start caving in?

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it should've been right
Let our hearts ignite
Are we digging a hole?
This is outta control
It could never last
Must erase it fast
But it could've been right
(It could be wrong, could be)

Love is our resistance
They keep us apart and they won't stop breaking us down
And hold me, our lips must always be sealed

If we live our life in fear I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again
Quell your prayers for love and peace
You'll wake the thought police
We can hide the truth inside

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it should've been right
Let our hearts ignite
Are we digging a hole?
This is outta control
It could never last
Must erase it fast
But it could've been right
(It could be wrong, could be)

Love is our resistance
They keep us apart and won't stop breaking us down
And hold me, our lips must always be sealed

The night has reached its end
We can't pretend, we must run
We must run It's time to run ..
Take us away from here
Protect us from further harm
Resistance

This song is about a dystopian science fiction novel titled, "Nineteen Eighty-Four" published by George Orwell in 1949. The Novel is about about the totalitarian regime of the Party and happens to be one of my favorite books. These lyrics by Muse really describe the relationship the main protagonist, Winston Smith, had with Julia. The Party was trying to destroy all human emotion in society including love. WAR IS PEACE, FREEDOM IS SLAVERY, and IGNORANCE IS STRENGTH is the three slogans of Big Brother their main political leader. "LOVE IS RESISTANCE" is certainly another slogan that would fit. I love bands that recognize the meaning of literature and write lyrics about it.

A Quote

"I hate this feeling. Like I'm here, but I'm not. Like someone cares. But they don't. Like I belong somewhere else, anywhere but here, and escape lies just past that snowy window, cool and crisp as the February air. I considered the streets beyond, bleak as the bleached bones of wilderness scaffolding my heart. Just a stone's throw away."
— Ellen Hopkins

True.

For quite some time now, I have lacked the inspiration to complete any poem writing. Out my window, it's drizzling. It's been raining for the past two days. It's unusual for a desert climate. I love the scent of rain-- It smells like the Earth: natural, blue and green. Maybe it'll pop up-- (When my journal isn't with me, of course). Haha.

Pre-Theory

Please compare.

This is a picture of a neural network in a human brain:



This is a picture of a cluster of galaxies taken by an x-ray telescope done by research in Harvard:



Question: Why are they connected so intricately?

Translation: Mon Cœur S'ouvre à Ta Voix

I absolutely love foreign languages. I have studied three years of Spanish in high school. I remember my first year of Spanish being the easiest class ever. Then, Spanish II Honors became slightly more complicated but I had Senor Bidwell who taught us nothing but hilarious stories about his trips to Spain... and Spanish III Honors with Senora Donley was the most exhausting class I have ever taken. I decided not to take Spanish IV AP since the AP exam is impossible unless you are fluent. This year, I decided to take Chinese I because I plan on traveling to China over the course of this summer. However, I've yet to learn many things. As for other languages, I know a little bit of Latin, Japanese, and German. French has always been a big mystery to me... When Muse decided to write a song titled "I Belong to You/Mon Cœur S'ouvre à Ta Voix" I immediately fell in love with it. I found the translation online. It's beautiful. I want to learn French now. In college, I'll probably continue to take a foreign language as an elective because I think it's interesting. They say you only need two credits of a foreign language for most college applications, I have four! It's fun for me.

Mon Cœur S'ouvre à Ta Voix (My Heart Opens to the Sound of Your Voice)

Ah! Réponds, (Ah! Respond to my tenderness!)
Réponds à ma tendresse (Respond to my tenderness!)
Verse-moi, verse-moi l'ivresse! (Pour out to me, pour out to me the euphoria!)
Réponds à ma tendresse! (Respond to my tenderness!)
Réponds à ma tendresse! (Respond to my tenderness!)
Ah! Verse-moi l'ivresse! (Ah! Pour out to me the euphoria!)

A Lullaby

This poem I wrote today was inspired by a forest fire of creativity. I wrote it with rhyming couplets that have no particular style. This is also inspired to a specific insomniac I know. I only hope it brings him a peace of mind. :)

A Lullaby
An ambition engaged in every root of our hearts,
Blue and brown irises' voyage soon departs . . .
Caressing each other's serene souls to slowly decompress;
Admiration speculates a versatile we never suppress,
Adoration mesmerizes the tranquility of the night,
Affection reflected infinitely like two mirrors nearby,
Attachment is as vital as respiring when whispering goodbye--
Calling out to you this lullaby . . .
Behind our closed eyelids entering the fifth-stage door,
A dream deep in our coexisting core.

Truth or Dare

"Truth or Dare" is the only game in the world that keeps female adolescents up until two in the morning. The scariest part is I don't remember much of anything. All I know is that our brains became exhausted and we couldn't exert enough energy to do any dares. So we all started to play truth. I am not sure if any of us lied. I'm sure a few of us did. Overall, I don't feel like I revealed anything. I just know I am tired.

I look gangster today wearing a large Pirates of the Caribbean hoodie. It's warm and makes me very happy. The weather out today is freezing. It's going to be as low as 38 degrees today. I feel like I'm scamming my own blog by not writing anything worthwhile. I am trying to poke my creativity from it's deep slumber. I keep getting an error message.

Bliss

Alas, a new poem.
I had a tremendous amount of difficulty with this poem. The problem is the style it's written in: a sonnet with ten lines, in iambic pentameter, "AB" rhyming scheme, mild alliteration, and scientific metaphors... My desire to write such a complex poem turned out to be very limited and the message did not get entirely across. I plan on rewriting it as a free verse... which will probably be more interesting. Also, this poem was inspired by someone totally awesome. <3



B l i s s
Gravity pulls my soul against the ground--
Pressure from my mind pounds bullet proof glass,
Fragile by frequencies of intense sound.
Your stance is a statue marching through grass...
Such divine and determined dialects.
My world spirals you into my orbit,
You're my satellite the sun reflects;
Other stars dim by the light you transmit--
Your whispers shiver me to stay awake,
The bliss your magnetic blue eyes partake...

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